I hit the streets of London again this weekend. Started by heading I to Waterloo and then walking back through the streets and seeing all the stuff that generally is hidden from view or thing you see when someone explicitly takes you somewhere. Besides that I found myself back in Waterloo and discovered some beautiful architecture in Westminster which included the mammoth and as far a I could say, undiscovered Ministry of Defence building. It's huge, gigantic and so impressive. Also I think back now at George Orwell's 1984 novel and it almost is exactly as I envisaged it to be - very normal and very imposing.

Headed into China town, where i was met with the whiff of chicken, sweet and sour and everything else. I wasn't hungry. So I'm off.

Interesting though, today I spend £10.80 on a train ticket for a journey I didn't take: I young lady needed a ride home because of varying unverifiable circumstances, so I walked her to the station and to her dismay I bought her a ticket instead of giving her the cash.

Besides that, I found myself in Covent Garden, walked to Trafalgar square and now I'm heading to Wimbledon to grab a much needed hair cut because my hair is becoming somewhat unwieldy - it fights back in the morning. So I'm calling in the reinforcements today. Actually this morning(it's all coming back to me now) I watched some super rugby - the Crusaders and the Buls and before that the waratahs v Blues. That must have been about 10 - I Rose wearily at 9. Tapped on the keyboard fo a while until being drawn into the snow boarding event on the sports channel. At that point I'd been up for a bit now an decided to head out... so this is really where I should have started my story.

Trains pulling up to Wimbledon station and I got to go - who k re blogging from your phone could be so great.

I've been thinking recently how time impacts on our lives. Quite rightly so, but does it impair our judgement? Does it and/or is it one of those mediums that is capable of doing so. I suppose like much that influences us, it's what things mean to us which makes something more important to us than other things.

Sometimes I wonder if time can influence what is wrong to become right and vice reverse. At times I suspect it does and can be an fact altering phenomenon. I ran into a young lady at work and she was notably upset, it transpired that she was sad because all her friends are all getting married, having children and moving progressively forward with their lives - it seemed that she didn't think she was doing any of that. I wonder how much the fact that time has past and with that time others have got married and have had children will influence her immediate attempts to do the same. It's quite interesting to feel that she may quite well feel that now, more than ever feel that being a mother is the right thing to do, when in fact she's never really wanted to be one, until now.

Ultimately I wonder how much of who were are changes with time. Do we become newer people as we grow or do we keep those fundamental beliefs or do they stray? It might not be an issue as it might be a natural change, one of perspective, maturity etc ... but how honest is this change? The more I think about it, I wonder if desperation sets in as we rather subjectively, with the aid of time, realise we've done nothing with our lives.

I wonder that if it's natural or not. I think it is. And are all effects of the natural world bad or good. Tendency I think I'd that people that everything natural and plays it role naturally is good. in which case this seeming desperation is quite fine and it should change our minds and beliefs such as the need to settle down, have children etc...

On the other hand - is time betraying us, changing our core beliefs? I don't know however I tend to feel that the natural tendency is warranted and ok but there a portion of my being that feels that fundamentally this is wrong.

It seems that I stand on the side that says if you change your mind, you've changed it so there you go, what gives, gives. It's a purely reaction to how one feels at any point in time, whether modified by external influences or not - ones mind and choice is yours.

I'm worried however by this tendency to change and how equipped we are to follow through with this change and maintain it as we live from that point onwards. Sometimes I thing time changes our minds but we wise up later and either regret or embrace it.