So, the company I work for got bought out by Citrix. We're a very small company so, it's pretty big I suppose. Pretty excited about the acquisition from a technical point of view. Citrix make pretty impressive software, just like us. So there is room to learn about their programming prowess and resources.

Apart from that, I've been pretty ok, bumped into an acquaintance on the train the other day and figured that the ratio of consequence to non-consequence makes consequence in no way magical. I might be wrong.

I've missed lunch twice now which has registered on my dont-do-it-o-meter but I know why: The weather sucks big time and lunch outside morphs into lunch indoors, in a restaurant and j have to share my space with others. That must be pretty bad because I've opted to share my lunch with my keyboard these last two days. My book is also suffering with partial reads on the tube and bath. I'll live.

I'm so out of sync with the outside world it seems - was updated about my family through my recent bump into an acquaintance on the tube.

Oh yeah, Halloween - that's coming up pretty soon. Am I looking forward to it? I suppose. Supermarkets are a bit confused right now - they're not sure of they should promote Christmas or Halloween, they're a bit all over the place.

Woke up this morning, it was dark - its the weather, we're coming into winter now an mornings are like evenings, pretty sucky anyway, felt my way to the kitchen and had a carbohydrate drink, the powdered stuff I bought for my hydration pack - just felt like it, thinking about it now, I'm never had a yearning for carbohydrate drink. Now, totally illogically I think my body wanted it. I'm not sure I'm keen on the taste either. Hmm. curiouser and curiouser.

on that bombshell, I'm outta here.

Well, it's back to work this week after an eventful week last with NERD World Brighton coming to an end. Pretty happy that I didn't do anything crazy like stay up and get drunk for consecutive nights. Don't tell anyone but while it was cool seeing Brighton, not having to make my bed in the hotel(wait, I do that home) and scenery, everything else felt like a ploy to 'own' me - nothing is worse than having to attend day after day of sessions, waking up each day at 7:00 to meet the start at 8:30. That sucked somewhat. No wait, that sucked hooolot. Anyway. I'm complaining, don't like doing that, but I'm just saying(and that qualifies it, Ok)

I did some really good runs while on the beach. I think I must have raked up some 20 odd kms in the evenings after the evening sessions, just before dinner. It was an investment in me. Nothing like stopping to gaze over the expanse of the ocean as the sun melts into it like a cheese glaze melted on a large piece of toast. I'm hungry now.

Watched a cool movie last night called Midnight in Paris, I watched it in Wimbledon. Walked back home, it takes about 5 minutes but I like to walk slower so I can soak in the night. Paris would be great for night time walks.

So, I was also thinking how if anything in this world, the more true you are with yourself, the more individual you are - Just thinking that.

I found a cool phrase to describe a young really hot lady in a funny, almost
childlike way: When a slim, tall, really hot babe walks by, all you can really say is "hoochie Mama!" I like that (though the dictionary tells me something waaay different?!) I need to see at least one such Hoochie mama today. That's all I'm saying.

So, apart from New Zealand winning the rugby world cup, Their was an NFL game on Sunday. Didn't watch it either. Sorta thought I might but hot caught up in something I can't remember. When someone inevitably will ask me what I did this weekend, I'll ask them first and wait for them to get lost in their own story by which time the elevator will have reached the 12floor and I'll just say, yeah got some from NERD wirld and just slept and I watched a movie. Because, that's all they want to hear. hmm slightly cynical today.

In other news I ordered myself a student discount card last night in an attempt to get free software from Microsoft via 'DreamSpark'. I was surprised at all the other discounts I can get too

Been flirting with a few concepts lately. The idea of Karma: What goes around, comes around. Also the idea of destiny, of things that are/were meant to be will always be, coupled with the idea of of every action has a reaction.

Im really on the fence with regards all these ideas, valuing all in varying degrees. Which idea beats the other? Don't know. Can we even compare them accurately?

With karma, or the concept thereof, I regard is concrete practical idea where doing good, good becomes thereof. I don't believe, or I reserve judgement, that it has magical outcomes. Only that if you are kind to someone, in most cases if you come across that some one again in the future, they will be good to you, as you were to them - not that some magical good will result like you win a business deal - its more isolated than that. Which leads me to the next idea, that you will win the next business deal because you made it happen, you took steps to increase your chances of winning - put yourself forward, did stuff. The last idea being that if you let things run their course, which is that of natural unrestricted interference and letting the path of least resistance determine the destined outcome of everything - you wait and see how things tend to pan out. Perhaps use the idea of karma to facilitate these last two ideas.

My opinions have changed about which of the 3 I value more. I've for a long time believer in letting life runs its course, however as I encounter the power of making things happen that i want happen, being a result of me taking steps to produce this result, the more I realise that waiting for an expected eventuality wastes time when you can define, design and dictate an eventuality.

I guess this progression is a product in a maturing view of knowing what one wants. When one doesn't know, letting life run its course is an attractive means not having to act, because you don't know if the result of explicitly acting or doing is what you actially want. As you realise that you want certain things, this view changes because you can get what you want by doing something and there is a longer wait or even no eventuality that you'll get what you want.

This leaves Karma, devoid of the battle above and I guess this us because Karna is not a strategy like the above fight between destiny and cause of effect. It's a more of a state of mind, a means to satisfy your psyche.

So in this way, I guess I am regard myself not favouring one and throwing out the other, more that I'm armed with awareness of the results of all these ideas.

and that's not a bad thing.