Today I woke up with another particularly good mood. I'm actually thinking that I'm figuring out why. So far my intuition has lead me to the simple observation that relaxing or being relaxed before going to bed really helps. I suppose that means not going to bed terribly tired which I'm prone to do. This weekend I had such a stress free weekend, I lounged, watched TV, didn't go to the gym and slept-in. Last night I gradually went to bed, I was also pretty excited about today - dentist appointment. Not sure what's so exciting about it but I am.

I phoned my mom this morning. Its the small things in life which add up to peace of mind. It's wonderful to share my time away with my parents, especially my mother. I'm so far away that it's good to stop, think, talk and relax. At the end of the day, it's where you came from which is as important as where you are now and where you're going.

I watched Van Helsing last night on the Xbox, funnily didn't play any games as that was why I switched it on. Been thinking about Cancer, the disease, and how terrible it is. Quite frightening. I think that book, The King of Maladies really opened my eyes to it. It's rather humbling to know it could affect me or anyone else without warning. Ive been thinking about how it as a disease is only here because of the human condition, lifestyle changes, exposures etc...which has me questioning the influence my life might have.

I'm in a coffee shop in Raynes Park, noticing for my short Flat white reducing periodically as I look up and pause writing this, and take a gulp.

I think the change to schedule is uplifting. Dentist first, then work. I've got a mag with me, which I'm planning to share with my lunch break along with a DVD... Toystory 3. Sometimes I think the relapse into adolescence is itself a calming, therapeutic escape from all that is programming, technical and otherwise. Deep down, learning to grow up has been more a necessity than a want. Small things like laughing at an animated characters expression is to me ok. The gradual spiral into financial concern, drama, impressions, social implications and the world at large is and has been an experience, a much needed walk into the hallway that is independence and experience. The more I walk this corridor the more impressed I am however with life but the less I tend to laugh. It's finding a striking a balance that binds me: Fun and laughter is my counter balance to a world of routine, stress and consideration. So thats why i find things that make me laugh, because it reminds me that all i am is a child in a grown-ups suit. How wonderful perspective is, I guess.

We had Citrix Architects come in last week and show us all the technologies that exist within Citix's extended software portfolio which was great, I enjoyed that - that's still for me a child like thing - getting excited about software! I learned lots. Did no work but neither did everyone else. I headed into the pub for my normal 1 beer, which went down well.

Spent a lot of time this weekend fixing up my site, in the sense that small little things were bugging like layout, inconsistencies etc... It's actually done now. I put it up with the thought I'd get content up on it, enough content to actually stop contributing for a while so that it still looks current, presentable and I would be able to cross having it at this stage. Because that was all I wanted, to get it up and then stop worrying about it. Thing is, leaving it is more difficult than I imagined. I actually love it.

I'm done with my website, it's finished, populated and now I need to move onto the next best thing...something...

I've just hopped onto the train, not before switching to a music track that that the lyrics,"Sugar-pie, honey-bun" which I find very fun/cute.

So yesterday was Ok, watched a movie during lunch over a Egg & Bacon wrap, packet of chips, a weird-ass lentil and cous-cous soup from the crazy organic, hippie-stroking shop-place outside the office - yuk! I'm pretty not that busy...how's that for English. Thinking, actually, I was silver-surfing' the web the other day and browser my old high school website and that was pretty strange but cool. Remembering is cool and at the same time it's the past and that's it, but that's also weird to see old names - one of which was my English teacher's leaving announcement in the school brief. So anyway...where did that come from?

I'm fixing bugs at the moment which is great because it means I'm not behind. But I'm still not sure that everything works...sounds like I'm the government, right? No but seriously, I'm pretty stoked that the stress it momentarily down. I'm thinking of taking the odd week or so of holiday that I have left to take some time out of the monotonous cycle that I can work myself into aka the rat-race which, unfortunately in still in. I remember reading a book called something-something-"Growing rich" where it described the rat race where you worked for money and money didn't work for you, the goal. Anyway, the nice thing about the rat race is that you get to learn and enjoy what you don't know. ok whatever.

But anyway, still frightfully cold. Sat up in bed and as soon as a limb reached out from the covers into the unknown darkness that was beyond the bed, it seemed to get an awful fright and came reeling from the cold. Good thing I've started to drink coffee in the morning - other than the taste, it's a cool way to relax and wake up at the same time and warms me up and gets me going. In this cold, you need that.


Yeah do that's my update - I feel myself wondering...

I woke up this morning in an incredible good mood. Dunno what it was. I know it wasn't my sleep - I had a terrible night's sleep, went to bed far too late and was hungry. I ended up half-asleep-sock-slipin-zombie-walking to the kitchen and grabbing a week-old pizza slice out the fridge...man it tasted awesome!

I got a new morning playlist because I just wanted to quietly enjoy this good mood I put myself in. Hey, I did have a can of sugar-free 7up first thing this morning - that helped, maybe?

So anyway, the playlist i got for spotify was pretty fantastic and just what was required. A little Ray Charles, Frank Sinatra, Jazz and some Blues to top it off. I even made a video of how cold it was this morning, it was cold and dark and early, here it is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AeyYM9hvCt8

 

Bought a new game, played it on Saturday until 3am. It's called Gears of War 3. Cleaned up my apartment. Fixed my router to the wall, which I've been wanting to do for a while. Had lunch with a friend.

Today is Monday the 5th, Christmas is coming and I'm so relaxed right now. I've got no worries and nothing to do over Christmas - I'm going to savour these moments and remember them the most because one day they'll go away but for now, well it's all about right now, livin' right now...(listening to Louis Armstrong had this affect)


I'm going to see how much of my good mood I can give around today...hope it doesn't backfire! poof :-)