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So what's going on with me I guess is the thing I most want to know! Funny after writing a few blog posts and then reading them I get a strange feeling of who I am at times. I know who I am, obviously - I'm the dude acting like the other dude who knows who he is! If you watch tropic thunder, the movie
you'll know what I mean by that sentence - if not, you'll just have to follow my general lunacy and deranged state of mine!
I nearly bought myself a motorcycle today, it is a green Kawasaki 2001 600cc which is utter craziness. I don't even think I need one on a practical or life style basis so it's really a silly idea. Cool though to consider it! I even strolled the 10 minute walk into town to
Visit my local bank to see how best I pay for it... Anyway thats over and done with and I'm onto my next toy.
I did buy myself a new toy last week now thinking bout it. I got myself an Nintendo 3DS which is fun. The main reason I bought it was to have something to do between code rebuilds. There is a space of 5 minutes between each rebuild at the office, and sometimes more, and I do about 5 a day so that's about 30 minutes of stupid time. Also when I'm on the tube and I get tired of reding my book, starting playing a game or something. I guess the biggest thing for me is that I have options in my down time. Perhaps not the mot productive downtime but during builds it's fine.
Finished reading Catch-22 by Joseph Heller and now I'm on a journey from Dakota to minnesota in Zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance as my perfered next read was not on the kindle, that being "God knows" by Joseph heller. So I've ordered the paper back from amazon along with "Atlas Shrugged" which I the next book after I want to read, again not on the kindle.
I'm really happy,I guess, with the fact that I've done a few things recently that I think have started changing how I feel about what I'm doing with my time generally in life.
1. I aim to hit the hay around 22:00 - 22:30. This is so that I can get a decent nights sleep in. I love and have always loved being able to do what I heck I want, go to bed when I want etc... But what I have found though is that I can do all this but I do tend to feel sluggish and tired at work and don't enjoy things in the day as I do when I'm alert, playful and naughty - all things I realise are fun while I'm alert. Also there is stat that freaked me out a while back in the news about a research study highlighting the dangers of not getting enough sleep and the strain it has on the body.
2. I've started reading. More than this I've started reading books that I feel are not wasting my time. I feel that they are constructive and useful prices of information that have a positive impact on my life. Also I've been wanting to find the time to do this and I think now along with my kindle acquisition, now is a good time as any. I loved reading Catch-22 which my mother sugesmted to me when I was a boy and I'm pretty chuffed that I remembered now well into my twenties.
3. I'm studying. Still doing, albeit quite slowly,my degree course In computer science. This is another good investment of my time.
4. Running. I'm running now and I'm running enough now that it's unusual for me not to be running. I'm feeling fitter than ever before, I went for my first 10km run in Kent and have just prepared for the next one in Feb. I actually love running.
5. I'm relaxed, I'm finding myself a lot more chilled about things, I'm not as concerned about potential dramas as I used to be and it's really really fun. Like just casually dealing with things, taking time to consider and measure more than I ever did I all so pretty empowering to the psyche.
6. I cleaned my apartment. No, kidding.
Yeah so things are slowly opening up, like the eyes of a child you ha just started to realise something. I guess, it's a personal journey. And it's about what you come to make important in your life that creates your quality of life.
7. I've finished my run of dentistry which is so so good. My dentist told me that my teeth were now in a good enough state that I need only come back in the summer, which is 6 months away. This is really good as its cost me a bucket load but in terms of investments - this one is right up there. With them.
As a consequence, I'm now more aware of how my diet of sugar items affects not only my teeth but my blood sugar level as well.
8. I started saving money. This is also important investment to my time. Putting some dough aside on a routinely basis is pretty good, considering that I've had to push the boundaries of my overdraft for the last 6 months into hyperdrive with me putting down deposits for my apartment, paying for courses, council tax, electricity and water bills and living too. Not only that I do quite like a gadget or too and so after a while of being in the red and getting out - its a good experience to overcome and even cooler to win and start going the other way in terms of savings.
Single life is pretty awesome and I'm starting to realise how it enables you to think about position and place in this world. It has helped me to appreciate the things I have, the things I don't have and more importantly that what I do in life affects me and only me and I can do with it what I want. I see young people like me getting married, in relationships and I must be honest, while its mostly fun and worthwhile, I see it to be such blockers in personal development. I see girls who are in relationships so stuck and I feel they don't know that there is so much more to life than settling down early. Obviously there are 2 sides to every story but I feel so lucky at times that I don't owe myself, my time, my thoughts to anyone and if anything, work is my compromise, my realisation what I have as a single person and my peace of mind. So so good.
Twitter is good because it lets you feel that you are describing to yourself what you're doing and that makes what you're doing feel like an investment in your time. That, and obviously blogging for me.
9. I wrote some cool software for a 3rd party, external from the kind of programming I do on a daily basis for a colleague and it had to do with a interfacing with a telephone system. What fun!
10. My website is finished. I loved and hated getting my website into a state where is was, as far as I as concerned, suitable. But now it's fine, looks great and makes me feel good about having it.
11. Started backing up my data. Little Small things = big savings.
I'm interested in taking a break from work for about a month, to go on a holiday just to spend some time with myself and zen it up a bit, continue reading my books, blogging and running. I also quite keen on being a little more focused at the gym in terms of toning up. I've started noticing that I'm looking good but still have a belly. I wanna six-pack baby!
Have been contemplating thinking about writing a book, or something creative which is a description of something beau I like describing and explaining stuff - blogging but I'd life to upgrade my effort. Perhaps not seriously but again, an investment in my time I feel will be warranted.
you'll know what I mean by that sentence - if not, you'll just have to follow my general lunacy and deranged state of mine!
I nearly bought myself a motorcycle today, it is a green Kawasaki 2001 600cc which is utter craziness. I don't even think I need one on a practical or life style basis so it's really a silly idea. Cool though to consider it! I even strolled the 10 minute walk into town to
Visit my local bank to see how best I pay for it... Anyway thats over and done with and I'm onto my next toy.
I did buy myself a new toy last week now thinking bout it. I got myself an Nintendo 3DS which is fun. The main reason I bought it was to have something to do between code rebuilds. There is a space of 5 minutes between each rebuild at the office, and sometimes more, and I do about 5 a day so that's about 30 minutes of stupid time. Also when I'm on the tube and I get tired of reding my book, starting playing a game or something. I guess the biggest thing for me is that I have options in my down time. Perhaps not the mot productive downtime but during builds it's fine.
Finished reading Catch-22 by Joseph Heller and now I'm on a journey from Dakota to minnesota in Zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance as my perfered next read was not on the kindle, that being "God knows" by Joseph heller. So I've ordered the paper back from amazon along with "Atlas Shrugged" which I the next book after I want to read, again not on the kindle.
I'm really happy,I guess, with the fact that I've done a few things recently that I think have started changing how I feel about what I'm doing with my time generally in life.
1. I aim to hit the hay around 22:00 - 22:30. This is so that I can get a decent nights sleep in. I love and have always loved being able to do what I heck I want, go to bed when I want etc... But what I have found though is that I can do all this but I do tend to feel sluggish and tired at work and don't enjoy things in the day as I do when I'm alert, playful and naughty - all things I realise are fun while I'm alert. Also there is stat that freaked me out a while back in the news about a research study highlighting the dangers of not getting enough sleep and the strain it has on the body.
2. I've started reading. More than this I've started reading books that I feel are not wasting my time. I feel that they are constructive and useful prices of information that have a positive impact on my life. Also I've been wanting to find the time to do this and I think now along with my kindle acquisition, now is a good time as any. I loved reading Catch-22 which my mother sugesmted to me when I was a boy and I'm pretty chuffed that I remembered now well into my twenties.
3. I'm studying. Still doing, albeit quite slowly,my degree course In computer science. This is another good investment of my time.
4. Running. I'm running now and I'm running enough now that it's unusual for me not to be running. I'm feeling fitter than ever before, I went for my first 10km run in Kent and have just prepared for the next one in Feb. I actually love running.
5. I'm relaxed, I'm finding myself a lot more chilled about things, I'm not as concerned about potential dramas as I used to be and it's really really fun. Like just casually dealing with things, taking time to consider and measure more than I ever did I all so pretty empowering to the psyche.
6. I cleaned my apartment. No, kidding.
Yeah so things are slowly opening up, like the eyes of a child you ha just started to realise something. I guess, it's a personal journey. And it's about what you come to make important in your life that creates your quality of life.
7. I've finished my run of dentistry which is so so good. My dentist told me that my teeth were now in a good enough state that I need only come back in the summer, which is 6 months away. This is really good as its cost me a bucket load but in terms of investments - this one is right up there. With them.
As a consequence, I'm now more aware of how my diet of sugar items affects not only my teeth but my blood sugar level as well.
8. I started saving money. This is also important investment to my time. Putting some dough aside on a routinely basis is pretty good, considering that I've had to push the boundaries of my overdraft for the last 6 months into hyperdrive with me putting down deposits for my apartment, paying for courses, council tax, electricity and water bills and living too. Not only that I do quite like a gadget or too and so after a while of being in the red and getting out - its a good experience to overcome and even cooler to win and start going the other way in terms of savings.
Single life is pretty awesome and I'm starting to realise how it enables you to think about position and place in this world. It has helped me to appreciate the things I have, the things I don't have and more importantly that what I do in life affects me and only me and I can do with it what I want. I see young people like me getting married, in relationships and I must be honest, while its mostly fun and worthwhile, I see it to be such blockers in personal development. I see girls who are in relationships so stuck and I feel they don't know that there is so much more to life than settling down early. Obviously there are 2 sides to every story but I feel so lucky at times that I don't owe myself, my time, my thoughts to anyone and if anything, work is my compromise, my realisation what I have as a single person and my peace of mind. So so good.
Twitter is good because it lets you feel that you are describing to yourself what you're doing and that makes what you're doing feel like an investment in your time. That, and obviously blogging for me.
9. I wrote some cool software for a 3rd party, external from the kind of programming I do on a daily basis for a colleague and it had to do with a interfacing with a telephone system. What fun!
10. My website is finished. I loved and hated getting my website into a state where is was, as far as I as concerned, suitable. But now it's fine, looks great and makes me feel good about having it.
11. Started backing up my data. Little Small things = big savings.
I'm interested in taking a break from work for about a month, to go on a holiday just to spend some time with myself and zen it up a bit, continue reading my books, blogging and running. I also quite keen on being a little more focused at the gym in terms of toning up. I've started noticing that I'm looking good but still have a belly. I wanna six-pack baby!
Have been contemplating thinking about writing a book, or something creative which is a description of something beau I like describing and explaining stuff - blogging but I'd life to upgrade my effort. Perhaps not seriously but again, an investment in my time I feel will be warranted.
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I'm feeling really philosophical today. O don't know why, I even nearly penned a verse. Nothing to be specifically philosophical about. There was that time on Friday that I bought a pizza right after vacuuming my apartment and of all things I'd not wanted to do - I dropped the box of pizza on the carpet. That's a philosophical thought.
I had a 15km run yesterday which has reminded me firstly how important it is to maintain pace and secondly that I can do it. Its 6 Km's off half-marathon distance which is exciting but not as daunting as perhaps I might have thought it to be.
Saturday went for a rather scenic 9km run with a friend from work as a pre-run training session just before our official 10km run in Kent. Got to be a tour guide by road and Wimbledon got exposed for the beautiful town that it is.
I went to gym and had to bite to eat after which I returned my running partner and found myself all excited about warewolves, Lycans and vampires: The new underworld movie with Kate Beckinsale was out. I watched that. I loved it. I liked it because it had shape shifting warewolves - Dude I love that sorta stuff!
Got my iPad to finally play ball with my iPad and do now I can read my book on either device(or Kindle) when I want which is cool option. Apparently I needed to know that I must tell Amazon which of my books I should share with what device. Uh, ok.
Apart from all this, I found myself at Ikea, on Friday and got myself a new rug, cutlery(because I landlords' sucked ). I also replaced the microwave and got a cool hot water dispenser - coffee hasn't been easier to take! It even has illuminated water. Super cool. Besides that I also got a couple of Woden bath slats, do I can step out the bath onto them. I like.
Well, it getting towards that time now where I sense the need to take a couple of days off and perhaps even, at some point, have a extended holiday.
For now I will have to deal with it :-)
I had a 15km run yesterday which has reminded me firstly how important it is to maintain pace and secondly that I can do it. Its 6 Km's off half-marathon distance which is exciting but not as daunting as perhaps I might have thought it to be.
Saturday went for a rather scenic 9km run with a friend from work as a pre-run training session just before our official 10km run in Kent. Got to be a tour guide by road and Wimbledon got exposed for the beautiful town that it is.
I went to gym and had to bite to eat after which I returned my running partner and found myself all excited about warewolves, Lycans and vampires: The new underworld movie with Kate Beckinsale was out. I watched that. I loved it. I liked it because it had shape shifting warewolves - Dude I love that sorta stuff!
Got my iPad to finally play ball with my iPad and do now I can read my book on either device(or Kindle) when I want which is cool option. Apparently I needed to know that I must tell Amazon which of my books I should share with what device. Uh, ok.
Apart from all this, I found myself at Ikea, on Friday and got myself a new rug, cutlery(because I landlords' sucked ). I also replaced the microwave and got a cool hot water dispenser - coffee hasn't been easier to take! It even has illuminated water. Super cool. Besides that I also got a couple of Woden bath slats, do I can step out the bath onto them. I like.
Well, it getting towards that time now where I sense the need to take a couple of days off and perhaps even, at some point, have a extended holiday.
For now I will have to deal with it :-)
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Don't know what happened last night but I had an awful sleep. I may as well have stayed awake the whole night. I woke up thinking about the two dreams Im sure I had but of which I do know is I don't know what they were.
It got me thinking a little about what happens after you go to sleep. Presumably through evolution, we've evolved to program ourselves to do whatever is best that our brains should when we sleep.
It's tremendously evident that we aren't quite sure what all we've evolutionarily determined that our brains should do. What we do know is that it processes the days events, reflects and perhaps summarises or even deduces various pieces of subconscious information that perhaps we missed first time around. It coordinates perhaps cell maintenance and recovery. I guess it thinks without much effort or strain on the body while the body sleeps because thinking can strain the body: Say I think about a solution and I force myself to think about it until I find one, I get stressed out, perhaps I may not think about other things in the day that when those other things bring focus to me may stress me out because I've not thought about them. The brain is an interesting thing.
What the brain does in a Stuart, is perhaps even more interesting!
I certainly am aware of brain activity as I wake as reminiscents of it slowly fades. The other thing is why does it fade, why doesn't it just give us the answer when we wake? Perhaps what happens is we overload the brains normal subconscious to interrupt it's normal 'throw-away' thinking to do our conscious ones but when it does them it throws what it came with away when we become conscious but like the volatility of RAM in modern day computers. So maybe conscious thinking overloaded to our subconscious thinking for thinking is inefficient and unnecessary.
That said, people do sometimes grab hold of the slowly evaporating thoughts as one wakes which helps the conscious effort. The more I think about the more I feel that it may be the wrong thing that the subconscious is supposed to do. Funny.
The brain perhaps subconcious functions are not to cross over to the conscious but coordinate underlying activities that the conscious isn't aware of and perhaps we should leave it to do that.
I could be wrong.
It got me thinking a little about what happens after you go to sleep. Presumably through evolution, we've evolved to program ourselves to do whatever is best that our brains should when we sleep.
It's tremendously evident that we aren't quite sure what all we've evolutionarily determined that our brains should do. What we do know is that it processes the days events, reflects and perhaps summarises or even deduces various pieces of subconscious information that perhaps we missed first time around. It coordinates perhaps cell maintenance and recovery. I guess it thinks without much effort or strain on the body while the body sleeps because thinking can strain the body: Say I think about a solution and I force myself to think about it until I find one, I get stressed out, perhaps I may not think about other things in the day that when those other things bring focus to me may stress me out because I've not thought about them. The brain is an interesting thing.
What the brain does in a Stuart, is perhaps even more interesting!
I certainly am aware of brain activity as I wake as reminiscents of it slowly fades. The other thing is why does it fade, why doesn't it just give us the answer when we wake? Perhaps what happens is we overload the brains normal subconscious to interrupt it's normal 'throw-away' thinking to do our conscious ones but when it does them it throws what it came with away when we become conscious but like the volatility of RAM in modern day computers. So maybe conscious thinking overloaded to our subconscious thinking for thinking is inefficient and unnecessary.
That said, people do sometimes grab hold of the slowly evaporating thoughts as one wakes which helps the conscious effort. The more I think about the more I feel that it may be the wrong thing that the subconscious is supposed to do. Funny.
The brain perhaps subconcious functions are not to cross over to the conscious but coordinate underlying activities that the conscious isn't aware of and perhaps we should leave it to do that.
I could be wrong.
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