I took the plunge and installed Gnome 3.0 which involved upgrading my Ubuntu which was already the unstable release. That said, you don't need to be on the unstable/Sid release to get it down - just apt-get install gnome-terminal. Warning however - it will break the unity desktop so if you're ok with not going back to it - then it's all good. I'm good with that because the unity Desktop just wasn't doing it for me.

Spent a whole bunch of time figuring out how to mount a folder which is on my remote VPS onto my macbook, which involved some fancy footwork with sshfs and macfuse. Essentially this allows me to runs a desktop photo manager and aim it at the mounted folder and let's me caption, arrange already uploaded photos in my picture gallery, updating it immediately. That was what I was doing - labelling, captioning and arranging my online gallery. Took me into the early hours of Sunday.

Went for two 2.5 km runs this weekend which is a good feeling. Saturday and Sunday. I feel fitter but would still like to get fitter.

Went to visit Ikea yesterday and Woah! after about 30 minutes I wanted outter there! I'm stuck with what I want in terms of furniture in my apartment.

You see, I don't want to buy huge amounts of stuff, especially heavy stuff that I'll just eventually have to move later when I move out but it irritates me that I might want something but because of this, I can't have it or I don't want it. I'll get over it.

Well, it's mo-day today and I've got a pretty serious amount of work to get through this week so I guess there will be a lot of headphone use and water "drinkage". That will be to cool my brain. my brain overheats. it's not very efficient.

Oh and I'll have to field issues with our latest development team software move. Thats why my brain overloads I suppose.

Stupidly, I've worn a jacket today which I don't usually do and now I'm sitting here in the tube sweating my arse off. Doh!

The more I think about it the more I think cancer is not a disease at all, more the body adapting. If you scratch a small section of your arm continually for years and it becomes inflamed because of it, this is the body's reaction to it. Let it become accustomed to it and it will become inflamed without scratching it, as the body learns and remembers. Obviously I'm just theorising and could just be plain wrong. Sucka.

So in a way I think cancer is a way that life can separate those that will not react to a problem(such as an itch on the arm) and those that will go to the doctor to prevent or stop the itch. Perhaps that's why breast cancer is such a problem - the scratching or the problem that continually occurs is not noticeable until the body takes over and goes into autopilot and then it's too late.

Can the body unlearn this adaption? Surely. Adaption triggers learning and learning can be forgotten.

That said, apparently cancer could actually an attempt to heal traumatic regions of the body that have continually been traumatised - like the small section on the arm being scratched until it becomes inflamed. Also, research shows that the repairing of the affected region is what manifests the effects of cancer - abnormal growth of new tissue to fix the problem. Somehow I wonder if the genetic make up of a cells' growth routine is manipulated(becomes 'adapted') or breaks down and thus manipulated growth becomes deadly. It's not clear to me how growth this way affects adjacent cells. unless the affected cells leak manipulated/adapted generic code that then adjacent cells incorporate and thus grow incorrectly. It makes sense that the body's reaction to damage like scratching is to heal by growing new cells. if those cells grow incorrectly, bam you have cancer. Maybe in the same way good cells incorporate the bad genetic properties, perhaps incorporating good generic properties into bad cells.

The other question is once you've acquired the bad generic properties - do all cells then have these traits, irrespective if they are bad or good and growth is just a time bomb waiting to happen. This explains why it 'spreads'.

if this was the case, a cure would be universal and resolve all cancer in the body - the cure would need to re-introduce the correct growth instructions and replace the existing manipulated or adapted instructions. This would then be shared to all cells in the body.

The other question is can generic material spread to other cells or it it isolated to bad cell?

Another question remains. Is it abnormal growth due to manipulated, traumatised cells or is it the cells depleting the trauma, thinking it's normal?

The other question is have I checked into a shrink yet?

In other news, say a stupid movie on Saturday and realised how everybody in the cinema laughed more at the parts they saw in the trailer, say at home, than in all other parts in the movie while they were in the cinema. Like verbatim. Makes me wonder where all the real people have gone?

Had a good walk into London today, really good for the soul. Got tired though. My dinner didn't taste great this evening - I really need to better learn how to cook, seriously, I mean c'mon!

Still not in the mood to do much recently - anyway.

just left a leaving drinks. I had a spankingly good 1 beer and a red bull to mix it up a bit. Silly really that I even had a beer, seeing that I'm sorta on antibiotics - took two capsules at 10 an this morning and that's all I need apparently. Ive got an infection somewhere in my unitary tract so this should sort it out. Anyway, I got there and stuck around best as my quota would allow - wished the nice lady(actually my massure) good wishes on whatever she decides to do in the future. That said I'm pretty stoked that my one beer quota is like the best way to get away from those sorta things because in all honestly I'm not really keen on shouting at people and besides it does sometimes get kinda boring. Said that but haven't got anything planned later anyway - in such a boring guy - but I'm so cool with that. Feel kinda good that I came out of hiding to attend(this is a work friends leaving do and it's my day off) so it's showing the effort that counts.

Watched England get themselves in a royal knot today as India pummelled their batting lineup. If anything to do tonight, I'll probably head and watch a nice funny flick in Wimbledon but then again, I've had a drink and I kinda don't like doing anything once I get home. There is some opportunity to invest in some budgeting strategies, learning PHP and definitely mucking about on the XBox but I'm kinda getting sick of it recently - still neck, not good.

Facing a couple who are all over each other like, totally verbose - kinda makes me want to kick them because that'd make me feel better. I love it :-)

Still not keen to go running and haven't been doing much activity for almost 3 weeks now - not until I'm 100%.

Met some Traders this evening who happen to be on our floor. Speaking to a guy told me that they make people poor and they get rich. dunno about that because you never know the whole story right. Some programmers could be real losers so it's perhaps not fair to judge traders in this way. That said, they were pretty cool to me...but that's because I'm such a nice guy :-)

I'm bored. I should never be bored. So need to find a better approach to using my free time. Loser.