Today had an abrupt, unexpected turn.

No sooner had i lifted my eyes, and suddenly I was wrestling 3 men in the middle of a local drug store.

I had just walked in to the Holland and Barrets drug store on the Strand, Charring-Cross after I'd handed back my library book. I was hungry, thought a protein bar(or two would do) - I got more than that. I got 3 crooks, 2 bent protein bars and my feathers ruffled-up a bit and a pulse rate nearer to a racing metronome.

I noticed the trio, as I did a full loop of the store(I'm a serial browser). Right off the bat, They seemed suspicious to me, they seemed to make constant eye contact with each other but did not speak. That was weird. It was almost like I was expecting something to happen.... They just walked back and forth amount each other and not doing anything but looked like they wanted to do something...just what it was was the particularly curious thing. That's what drew my attention to them. As I walked by they watched me, like everything - they seemed to be watching everything all the time and doing nothing. Bit Wierd I thought.

I was sitting in a crowd, drinking a bland milkshake in the sun while on the Big screen, the England and Costa Rica football match was being played. It was busy, suits, shirts, girls, sunglasses, BBQs and lots of city chatter. She, wearing her large round black sunglasses, turned to me and said, the reason why he doesn't have a ring that finger was because he was incapable of marriage. Also because he had a bad attitude, was arrogant and generally an unfavourable person. I considered it. And that made me wonder about him as I sympathised with his evaluation by her and wondered how much of me would eventually be affected by her evaluations of me. Why does a man have to be capable? Why must a man get married? Why is it seen as an achievement? It's not, especially if it's not a goal. Why is so much value put on marriage? Then I realised, when it's not your goal, and everyone else's - then they'll define your lack of achieving their goals in any which way they want. Perhaps he doesn't want to get married whether he's a pain generally or not. Sometimes you got to stop, give yourself a mental slap and get out of the haze that society has implanted in your psyche and think for yourself - your value system is different to everyone else's.

Sometimes I know that sometimes it becomes necessary to just choose right now and be done with it.

Time constrains, life constraints and everything almost force your hand and then you have to make a choice. And you do. You just do it. It's almost automatic sometimes. Marriage fascinates me.

It's the only thing in my mind that universally is considered correct and appropriate in the lives of all humans. This fascinates me. It's a human invention of coupling with rules. It's surely natural, it's normal, it's a must...You will be married.

That's my example. I sit on the tube and I notice people who are fused to each other, couples. At times it seems they are happy at other times it seems like they are bored, in step, monotonous, getting-by - but relieved, content... passed that all pressure getting together etc.

And I wonder, if it's times like this when this pressure is necessary. Like an evolutionary mechanism to get the species to reproduce, one of the many tricks up mother natures sleeves. Furthermore I wonder if we can realise it, give into it or can resist it. I wonder if it's how important ones choices are to ones own representation of oneself, that defines whatever choice one makes... Bottom line it seems is to not settle for anything contrary to your own needs, ideas and ideals.

But do people just settle by default?