[dropcap cap="O"]k so sometimes I can be a total flippin zombie on the train in the morning - for example I would travel to Oxford everyday(2 hours there and 2 back! yeah no jokes!) and I'd sleep on the train and basically zonk out. Now, I travel for 30 minutes each way into London, it's much better - I'm awake now for my entire journey, not only that but I always get a seat on the tube. 

So that's cool, but I must say that the more I realise that I have a seat and other don't, this gets me thinking - do I need my seat? Is that the criteria for being seated? need? or is it merely a matter if being more comfortable during transit? bear with my strange "mind-stuck" here folks.... if you're pregnant, less able to stand - fair due, you need a seat. if you're a large person, still you're less able to stand - so take my seat. If you're got high heels, sure take my seat you crazy woman. if you're having difficulty with excess baggage - my seat us yours. Now, that's all good, we've separated the needs out. 

Now, what about being polite? When do you give up your seat? maybe for a woman? always for those older than you? I instinctively say yes to the above, however the more I think about it - the more I question my instincts. Things like woman wanting to be treated no different to men, woman being successful, motivated, rational, reasonable, demanding and being commanding characters - especially in cut-throat London, the more I think that, perhaps we should all be treated as being in the same boat going into work each day. Still this thinking makes me slightly uncomfortable but it may be a rational and reasonable thought. Are these the kind of thoughts that drive politeness? often I don't think so. is politeness the break out of the norm or reason? I don't know but what I can say without reasoning is that it makes me feel better - and this is my substitute for not being able to decide which reason I want to go with[/dropcap]

[dropcap cap="W"]oke up today with the sun streaming into my top floor apartment. a fantastic change to the cold dull mornings of late - it's actually nice to feel warm again. Don't get me wrong I love the cold miserable weather in winter but something about change is fascinating!

Also pretty psyched to feel uplifted(that doesn't sound right) in mood generally today.

I peered into my kitchen this morning and at the 3 pizza boxes which kinda gave me a fright thinking that I've had 3 too many. No worries though, I'm over pizza for a while. Gym calls, suns shining and I'm keen.

So now I'm sitting in the tube, in the mental conundrum of figuring if I should give my seat to the nearest older looking person...gulp.[/dropcap]

[dropcap cap="A"]mazing how great it feels to finish work, the evening is waiting - the things to do are countless. If I could remember this feeling forever!

This is the essence of how I want to live.

It sounds so corny, but seriously this is what life is about - about being appreciative of moments, moments of excitement, of joy, of wonder. Hoping that ones whole life would be aim like it is now![/dropcap]