Today I'm feeling pretty ok. I mean, the last couple of days were alright but coupled with my lurking cold, it's kinda been rather samey.

Been drinking coffee, a lot of it recently. Doesn't really matter, does it? Probably not. No. It's Christmas in a couple of days time, I'm ok with this. Looking forward to the two off days! Got a Christmas party tomorrow, smart-casual:I'm very ok with that. Life is so much easier if you live your own life without aligning it to everyone's - I'm so over that.

Started thinking...But that's a start at least.

On a less blasé note, as far as productivity is concerned, and by that I mean the quality of my time spent in general, the time that I've had while unwell has been some of the best spent. Wierd that, right?

I've temporarily stopped running weekly which is probably good for me, rest-wise and then I started reading again but then stopped again; boring book? Yeah but I'm ok with that too. Then geekily, Ive been playing with some new technology, been thinking though about technology in general really and how best to create something with it. Thing is, do it the opposite way and its way better. Nevermind still not fussed about that either. I'm listening to Cher shoop-shoop-doop song. I'm ok with this too. Got an assignment for January.

Set up my bed-side light that lights up simulating natural daylight to wake you up. That woke me up in the end but still haven't been sleeping all that good recently. Woke up twice before that. A couple of days ago, I fox woke me up with its screaming. Last night,the first time was only an hour after I went to bed. How disappointing.

Been window shopping lately on Amazon, laptop surfing. Don't really want anything. That's good and that's maybe a good thing, got to save cash. Except, I'd like to get better, go running and gyming. Maybe that should be my present to myself...getting back there.

Some pretty good news though is that I have finally got information from the UK border agency! I got to enroll my fingerprints, have my picture taken, scribble my signature and pay £19.20 at the nearest post office. So kinda thats my M.O right now. 

Must go.

I wrote what I felt was a pretty worthy leaving tribute email about a colleague recently. He's leaving us after making a fundamental success of our company. Firstly starting it, then being a generally good dude and I guess sometimes you need to say what you think is right, else whats the point really. Also, I think is big and human to say you have made a difference, and you've accomplished things and obviously, the most important thing is to say thanks...

Obviously, the creative juices were flowing freely...

Coming across and uncovering something truly magnificent, is akin perhaps to finding and seeing an incredibly intense bright glowing sphere, nestled quietly all alone in a dark forest say.

Initially, it surprises you; you’re very excited, then very anxious, then very, very cautious. Cautious because it’s bigger than you are, it’s more exceptional than you are, it’s newer than you are and you’ve never seen anything like it before and you don’t know how it works and what it does.

I imagine, you might sit there for a while just watching it, amazed by it, excited trying to make sense of it.

Lurking very cautiously (as I have), in the midst of things that are bigger than me, you tend to have an incredibly opportunity to observe and appreciate a fair few many things. The side effect of this is that if you tend to pay attention, you tend to observe your own weaknesses and flaws, from others that don’t have them. Initially, you tend to feel very alone, very normal and then you soon realise how you might learn from this, then how beneficial such a situation is and then how it might work for you, then how you could become better and stronger and you get real excited. So you watch and pay attention, take notes and learn. I guess, in the same way you might do if you came across an exceptional glowing sphere in a dark forest.

So thanks Paul - It’s been a privilege lurking behind, in your light, all this time.

And with regards to the future, sometimes you need to be wondering alone through dark forests to find new things that are exceptional.

I wish you the best during your walks

Thats pretty much it.

Been unwell lately. I felt like I was awake all night last night and I probably was. It's the flu, my immortal enemy. I didn't go I to work yesterday either: at 7am my alarm sang and as conscious took effect I knew I wasn't with it per se. Actually most of the weekend was like this. Having said that, apart from all the sniffles, sneezes and tissues - I had a really good weekend. Weird huh? Yeah, on Saturday I was in my lounge, all wrapped up in front of the TV and I watched some real good movies. Midnight In Paris is my favourite. It's got so many real life elements in it that I relate to in my life. Then their was Big Year, which was funny.

I also started a programming project and it was so good. I think a good project is one that is frustrating but you keep pressing on until you get where you want to be. It was like that this weekend. I had one this time a moment of frustration that relegated me to the shower where I usually figure stuff out or at least think differently about stuff and get away from the problem.

All of this I could do at home without having to leave home and endue the cold, the very source and resting place my nemesis, The Flu. Which I'm sure will be looking out for me all day today and the days to follow.

I'm on the tube, on the Northern line, passing somewhere between Clapham Common and Clapham North. Yesterday I slept most of the day which might account for me not sleeping most if the night last night. When I did wake up, I sluggishly found myself fairly sorry with myself and also found a distinct lack of anything in the Fridge. I think the worse thing is knowing you must go and eat and you must do it by going outside, shopping. If I didn't have to eat, I wouldn't but God made me quite like the taste of a good Mushroom, courgette and tomato omelette at any time of the day really. Not only that, I make the best one of these known to me.

I had another interesting thought recently, but I've forgotten what it was. I thought I'd mention it though as I did have it momentarily.

Since me getting ill, I've decided to not exercise that much from now maybe for another week or so. Also I got to figure out why I got ill to start with...Diet? Over exercise? Coincidence? But I'm on the mend now so that's ok I guess. Sore throat is gone but still, found my way into Boots to stock up on pocket tissues and I've ram jammed packed every pocket in my coat with them. Here's another strange fact: I love having tissues available when I need them. Almost akin to a tradesman having the right tool for the job. Only, being snotty and ill is not my job - I'm just covering for someone at work who'll catch my cold very shortly. Kidding, my flu is done I think. Another thing sorta weird thing is my reluctance to blow my nose on the tube. Anyway.

You know sometimes I feel my life is gearing up to something but I'm not sure what it is. Change is ominous, right? Risk is uncertain.

Been reading a new book, didn't finish my last one. This ones an action one. It's bothering me a little because i can feel the author in it, writing it and saying stuff in certain ways strategically. i don't like feeling that i sense the author is around but ill probably get over it.

Bank is the next and preliminary station to mine do I'm kinda going to have to wrap up now. /div